vonnie

ok so at the end of sat just gone i was so relvied that i had a few days off work not cause i hate my job or owt like that it had just been a tough week with the the longer shifts which i aint complaing about it will be worth it tomorrow when i go to the bank lol but it did kancker me out and with not being able to sleep till late still it was playin heavy on my energy .

 

but i can't wait to go back now , i enjoyed my days off and even drank alkiehol lol at both my little bro's b-day parties so had good nights and was just abkle to relax to be honest i though i would of missed work a little more than i did but i workedround that i got cleaned my room lol only messin.

 

only issue is that when i am bored i text alot and being as i normally have somethign to do in the evening i have been texting instead which is not good for the wallet lol spent quite a bit on texts this week ah well , been textign a friend of a friends - their name is billy and she seems really cool and easy to chat to which is always good .

 

got terry's party on sat woot i am gettign wasted andi dont care lol and then out sunday night to a gig which is cool

 

leaving for work in an hour and need food otherwise i will starve lol

 

so bye bye

love vonnie

so since last thurs been doing 3-9 shifts at work which is cool i don't mind will be a little extra cash to put towards the stuff for terry's 18th can't wait should be a top night , only thing that is knakcering is the ride to and from work as the wind as been quite strong making it harder to peddle sometimes and i am getting home and still not sleeping till late it'2:20 am right now lol and i have wathced sky sports that much that i know every story they have been on 3 or 4 times and i have watched tow pints of larger and a packet of crisps so much .

 

work is good but boring this week excetp for when guthrie as been in see mkaes the hours go faster had a right laugh with her tongiht but tis not the same without pam alex and mel as they tend to work near us so have a right laugh  . but they'll be back soon enough , alex looks very smart in his robes from the pics on his space and well done mate .

 

me seb jim and jess met up sun eve and went to a gig at the five lamps was great me and me 3 cloest mates jst enjoyed the chilled relaxed acoustic sets was great hoping to go to more unforutatley had to miss out on some gigs this week due to lack of cash and a clash of days but i will make it up to the relevant peeps .

 

broke me watch on sat so need to go to town on fri and get a new one with jess might nip up to rams super store and get john's flag that i want to get him for his b-day .  might see if i can get bob the builder watch lol joke .

 

can't wait till 8pm sat i get a full 4 days off work to kick back and relax lol i know i am gonna misss it purely for the chat and banter we have but i need a break getting a bit bored .

 

feelign a little worried just recently at as jess said my lack of direction i have no idea what i wanna do with my life and it is really worryign me i really need to sit and think about things .

 

anyways gonna go

bye bye

love vonnie

 

 

 

are the greatest thing ever , they are like a family you can choose , and yeah you an make the wrong decision sometimes but they all add to the character that is you . Life is by no mean roses and rainbows and little kittens all the time , even some one as happy in life as me can see this and it is times when the world seems so scary , horrible down right disapointing that those few people you choose to hold close and dear to you can show you the kitten rainbows and stuff .

 

I will admit was never blessed during my school years with many friends , i was the quite one at times a bit of a loner , but the friends i did have and that got to know me better saw parts of the real me and what i was like mainly seb and jim for years these were practically the only true friends i had and i will neva forget these guys and how much they have affected my life for the better .  even now just a quick chat online with seb or the most randomist little text from jim can turn a average or shitty day into a great day and they can mkae me smile so much and i hope to never lose touch with these guys i feel very blessed to have meet them and got to kn0ow them and for me to be me around them .

 

in the last year i have also meet some truelly amaxing people - sure some of them can annoy me to high heaven and i can argue with them , but for the most part they are fantastic , i do owe alot to wilkinsons this last year and a bit , it was the first time i have ever felt truelly comfortable with me and about who i am , and they except me for who i am , so much so i am no longer scared to speak to people i don't kow from adam .

 

i owe alex alot , for tlking to me at first at work and not judgin me and also for introuding me to one of my best mates ever jess , i now i annoy him some much some times and he can me but he is also quite a funny guy even if i dont get all his jokes and a bit unsure of his taste in much and espcially footy team , but not ever one is as perfect asme :D , jess who has so much to give and knows so much for a 17year old she amazes me at times i was never that together at her age and i am learning so much about life music all sorts which is fantastic. also to these two for allowing me to meet there family and get to know them alittle .

 

also anna funny as fuck - does not give a toss - most dirtyest laugh ever! Guthrie , i don't think a day passes where i am not instiches over some comment see makes or something she says , and in laugh you just need people like this , jim is the same - they both can make me laugh so much and not cause they are doing somehting on purpose , it makes me smile to think of them and thats worth more thananythign in the world .

 

and to any other firends i have you all mean alot to me this last year more so as i havehad to accept things about myself and figured out who I am and you have been there in the good times and bad , i sound so bloody sentimental or just mental , just get thinking donlt yah on day s like this when u look out the window the sky is grey and there is not much you can do but think about those special or should i say "specail" people in my life .

 

i also want to mention those friends that have always been there through out my life - terry , john , joe and bex the great people i will ever meet and i know that even if all those people mentioned move away and lose touch i will never lose touch with these guys - my bros and sis i am so glad that we are a close family i could not imagine my life with out u guys in it .

 

ok now i am deffo getting a jess would say mushy so i am going to leave it there lol i feel a prat as it is typing this but i am bored and this is what i am thinking right now

 

so thank you all

love vonnie

ok so it is almost half one  or it will be by the timei finish this , and i am wide awake and it is driving me nuts ! 'cause i will be up till bout 3 then i wont get up till 12 then by then half the day is gone  and it is really strating to get to me .

 

i have tried everything warm shower before bed , reading a book , putting on music anythign to try and relax myself enough to sleep . i come home from work bout 9:30 and at about 10:30 sometimes 11:30 i feel sleepy so i get changed into me jammies turn off the lights and tv and snuggle up to woolie or ronnie and try to sleep however an hour or so later and i am still like this .

 

i can't seem to settle or switch off when i really want to it is kinda like coxing(sp) myself to sleep all the time  , recently i have been trying to help my self out , like i got my bike fix so i ride to work and back using lots of energy that i would not normally use , also keeping myself busy in the day like fixing  my bike cleaning my room wlaking to the shops and stuff for me mum wot ever it takes to use up lots of energy but still nothing .

 

it's not the first time i hace had this problem it keeps cropping up - i don't want to take sleeping pills for it as when i do get to sleep i am fine i have the odd night where i am up and down all night but i generally when asleep get a good 8 hours but i would prefer to have that 8 hours between 12-8 or even 1-9 but it aint happening that way and it is really annoying . i also dont like taking pills so that aint good .

 

there might be a few possible reasons - i tend to keep things bottled up and i admit before i go to sleep it plays on my mind wot i have said wot others have said what i did that sort of thing - so my mind is still ticking i really wish i could learn to just turn it off and stuff .

 

there is also the amount of coke i drink not as much as i used but i still dirnk a fair bit during the day - i think there is alot of it in my system so thats alot of caffine.

 

but then i look at my little (well not so little ) bro and he drinks loads of coke ad he manages to sleep alright all my family do as soon as there heads hit the pillow they are off . when i was in me other room me and my sis would go bed she would say night and as soon as i go to say night she is fast off .

 

it might b the fact i am not iving my brain much excercise ??? but i had this problem whilst i was in school espcially sixth form years so cant be that .

 

itmay be an issu i can never truelly get over espcailly not at the min its been like this for a few months now and it is irratting .

 

in other news lol spojke to seb for a bit tonight it's nice to alk to him as he was there for me alot during secondary school and was a big part of my life i really miss how we used to be , jess is not well :( she is in bed with the flu or something like that - so she aint been online to chat been to ill to get out of bed poor jessie hope she gets well soon . not spoken to jim properly for about a week lol hoping to see him friday for a bit and try and tempt him with this gig that i have looked at - seb said he will come hoping that jess cn and will want to come that would be awesome - it will mean me miss the weekly quiz at my house but iam sure they can cope one night without me and jess .

 

had a laugh at work with anna doing the overs work is getting a bit boring now cause what i am doing is becoming a little routine it will be nice to have those few days off at the end of the motnh just to recharge and stuff , but it is nice to have the people to tlk to and have a laugh with i am going to have to start looking into a second job soon or just something - to be honest i need to sit down and see what i want to do in the future but to be honest i have no idea i am just taking life as it comes right now - i am only 19 so got hopefully alot of life ahead of me , i am starting to save though at the min kinda paying back into my back so that my over draft is the full £100 , then i know it aint much but £20 a week to one side shoul be ok going to see bout getting my wages paid to me back accoutn rather than savings should not be to difficult .

 

anyways i am off to do well something anything to try and sleep .

 

lots of love

vonnie

so has been awhile - wanna say happy new year dudes , i had such a good start to the new year ( we wont tlk of the little almost hitting al incidenti was very pissed) . yes thats right , I GOT PISSED it was a laugh and i can remeber all of it  and would like to thank all that was there . cause they made it an amzing new year - why is it though that so little people know about first footing - such a wonderful tradition within my fam and will deffo hopefully continue it .

 

so wot's be going on - i kinda told someone i loved them - not exactly regretting cause i did mean it - i just wished i did not feel it as they dont feel it back but new year so a whole new fresh start in love .

 

got a new room only took me about 2 weeks t empty the room strip the walls , paint the skirting boards putting all the  wall paper and movin in and everythin that follows so not bad - felt wierd the first ngiht - cause i was happy but a bit down cause was used to becky being in the same room but now all is good tis nice to be able to go have a bit of quite time .

 

so wot's in store for 2007 - firstly i got 2 18th , a 21st and a 50th thankfully kinda seprated by big gaps , got a trip to toys r us soon with jess , hopefully a few gigs with jim or jess or both , few cinema trips and stuff , a chance of a trip somewhere on a bus to some random place - i am also thinking of going somewhere for me b-day with me two bst mates jim and jess but got to have a word with jess bout it see if she is up for it .

 

i do have some photies to add but at the min in the process ofdoing some work to my comp so no new ones till then soz dudes i know how much u all love to see me lol joke

 

went to see night at the museum with jim tonight was an alright film funny stuff afters jim was going to town so needed to wait for a bus so we wnet and got some food for kfc gets outside and it's absolutely thorwing it down - thank god there was a sheltered bus stop near by (not the one jim needed but kept the rain off)

 

home life is up and down as always - work is great had some funny times reently - (anna lieing our new system of putting overs away - just please spare my ankles )

 

anyways thats me - look out for the crimbo pics and new years pics they will be on asap

 

lot of love and have a great 2007

vonnie

ok so i am on the main comp in the living room as my pc is making some very funny noises and my lappy well my dad is trying to sort out the power supply for it so i thought i would come donw stairs and type up some blogs .

 

not been doing much just getting crimbopressies which means going to town during the mad rush hours to get some pressies thankfully alot of the pressies i am getting are nto wanted by peopkle as much so they are easaily avaibleable , went with tez meant to have gopne with jess but she is ding overtime alot who came blame her all extra money at the end of the day , plus terry offered to go so i thought yeah why not me and terry always go crimbo shopping together would seem a shame to leave him out this year .also been playing fifa 07 with john and sims2 with tez can become quite addictive though - i really want to play stars warslego but aint got round to doing so yet .

 

anyways the main reason for this blog was to set down an issue i am having with my dreams , just recently i am having dreams about some one quite vivid (non-sexual) they are so really i wake up wondering if it happened or not which is wierd thing is the main person in the dreamis always the same and it's been like this for the past 4 nights or so.

 

onyl problem is i have just started to get over a relationship with this person and i thought i was ok scrap that i am ok i have moved on i am just finding it really wierd that the more i move on the more dreams of this person i am getting and the more stronig and real they seem , i would not mind normally dreaming of a friend has it is bound to happen if you spend alot of time with them but the fact is this person just recently i only see once a week and it is kinda annoying me as i really want to move on but these dreams are just holding me back a little and it's really wierd .

 

i knwo some people will just say it's cause you aint over them and you still really like them and try to make out that i will still do anythignt o try and persuade the person back but it aint the other person in question as far as i know and am concerned as moved on themselves and o nyl harboursfeelings of a friendly nature which i think i am almost there too .

 

ahhhh thought i should right it down as it was playing on me mind - i did not want to go into the dreams as they are private but just we wanted to gettin it out of me head .

 

keep you posted

 

bye bye

love vonnie

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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wow ! i can't beleive it as been almost 2 months since i have blogged , man so much stuff as gone off - ok i lie a couple of things have happnend since i last wrote . seriously a whole 2 months i am shocked at myslef just terriable !!!!!!

 

ok i am gonna start from halloween as that is the biggest event since i last spojke that took place , we had a huge and i mean huge halloween party fancy dress and everything was really funny had loads of friends round and yes i got pissed i did not give two hoots was a really good party , i did get a littledown towards the end but that was a personal reason and all in my head to be honest . but everyone had a good time as far as i know and jim even managed to pull lucky git lol .

 

week later was bonfire and we had fire works jess and anna came over and watched them with my fam and some other peeps which was cool it's nice to have firends experience some things with yah , we watched tv and stuff jess stayed over - but she had to be up early next morning which almost killed me off - i had to be up at 9 i have not seen a 9 on a sunday morning in months !!!! lol

 

wnet matlock with jess on the 10th of nov - well went bakewell first - which is a tad boring as there was not much that appealed to our taste and also we did not have much time but fount a nice little bakery called the bakewell tart shop - they sld a nice bit chunk of plain flapjack for i think it was70p but was sooooooooooo nice and jess manged to get a few books she wanted/needed which was cool .

funy moments actaulyl getting there first of all we got one of these ticket things and i scratched the wrong month off did not cuasre to much trouble though only onee bus driver gave us a bit of a dodgy look about it lol , but on the way up i was pointing out all the animals we saw alls jess oculd say "can't u tell ur from the city" lol anyways i goes at one point "jess!, look that sheep is huge " however to my embrassment jess points out that it is in actual fact a cow lol   ,

 

we then went to matlock which was more livelyier we started to get a bit hungry so went to this sandwhich shop called miss tiggywinkles lovelly lovelly cobs , we sat in this little garden thing near the city centre and jess was gettig angry at the man feeding the pigeons almopst had to hold her back from attacking lol . but it was amazing went lookign round the shops and jess brought me this little teddy cow and we named it Sheep (now sits nicely on top of me comp )

 

 

had a few cinema nights out which has been a life tis really nice to get out the house and meet up with mates , got a few more to orangse soon which will be cool say tenciaous d the other day si not as bad as i thought it was going to be actually had me laughing a fiar bit , mianly cause of amanda she is a right laugh .

 

we started doing trival persuit nights at mine to replace the oub quiz which no one could afford started out just jess coming down then alex and it then turned into a quiz and now amanda and katie have come into as well and is a great laugh everyone taking semi seriously and the arguments over it are so funny specially bex.

 

went out for beckys birthday on the 18th and everyone got a little merry (jess got pissed !)  but it was funny going out for katies b-day on the 9th her b-day is th 8th so HAPPY B-DAY DUDE ! jim will be going we aint had a night out i dont think properly together since the night the island was close *sniff* that was a good night got a few peeps out , got chased round the pool tbale , hid under the pool table - but all fun .

 

sorting out a night for when everyone returns to derby from uni which would be nice to see everyone again - started texting wyrobek recently really nice to hear from him again he seems to have matured a little he is coming cinema on monday .

 

currently just going through the net as i had no net access for a few weeks which killed me almost - also sorted out a bank acount so can shop online yay - mum just  made bacon sarnie dont normally like um but i am starvin they went down nicely .

 

will be getting me own room soon- as me brother is movin out after crimbo - tis gonna be smaller than the room i am in now but then aain i only use a small portion of this room anyways - plus it will be me own room yay

 

lovelife is no existant again lol but does not mean i aint lookin i am ok with being single quite happy with it but tis nice to have someone to think of and cuddle when u want to .

 

also got a new phone tis my crimbo pressie off mum and dad but they said being as my old one got crushed so badly and was lending one of anna that i oculd have it early and i love it

 

will add some photos soon - got to drag them off the lappy .

 

anyways i have updated u and i swear i wont leave it so long next time

 

 

bye bye

love vonnie